Fight the Addiction!
Posted by Cwazy at 12:54 AM on June 24, 2004.
I've been busy,
Sorry guys I've been too busy these couple of months and I have very limited time. I work 7 days a week and I am currently taking summer school to finish up my credits to graduate next spring. I also don't have internet access and thus no time to go online. My mother thought I was spending too much time on the internet and wasting valuable study time. I was very upset about this decision, what's the big deal anyway? I tried to convince her that the current generation needs to be wired into a system of elaborate systems in a life tapestry of interwoven lives through these inlets called computers. Suffice it to say she didn't buy it and BAM no more internet.
Now I feel like such an outcast on the playground which is life. I walk down the streets hearing them whispering and talking behind my back. "She doesn't have internet" "what kind of life is that?" What an outcast".
Naw just kidding no internet is fine there are millions of people that live their lives without internet and without the use of a computer. It's a step back from this North American life style I've grown accustomed to. I realized I had a problem...an Internet addiction if you will. It took a few steps in order to overcome this addiction and to live life simpler.
Step 1: Admit you have a problem:
I thought I didn't have a problem in fact I was so convinced I wasn't addicted to the computer and it's evilness that there was no problem as far as I was concerned. I realized the err of my ways and you know you have an internet addiction when:
I was looking for internet cafes to jive down to and surf.
I would call up my friends to go over their house and stay till 12am almost everyday to e-mail and play online games and surf.
Looking through Best Buy catalogues in search of a wireless internet connection via a laptop. That way I can hide it from my mom and I can leech internet signals off my next door neighbors.
That was the last straw I finally came to the realization that I had an internet addiction. So on October 7th 2003 I faced my inner demon looked at my reflection in the mirror and told the person I saw "Hi my name is Jenna and I have a problem...-_- I am addicted to the internet"
THERE I said it and that was the first step on my way to recovery.
Step 2: Cut off the cancer before it gets worse and set some goals, in other words quite cold turkey. No more internet cafes, no more sleeping over at friends houses to use the computer no more!
Step 3: Find something to keep myself busy while I try to get over the cravings and urges...
I answered this step by work, work, work oh and more work. I now work at a warehouse picking things for orders and what not, and I still work at Wal-mart on the weekends. Right after work I go to school where I am studying business law. Did you know that nine tenths of the law is based on ownership? I did not know that!! where else could you learn of such meticulous detail but from books, and from class....maybe interne.... >_< I mean books ^_^
Step 4: Log your progress with some sort of journal...(ONLINE JOURNAL?!?!) oh right paper and pen type journal... sigh! -_- so I've been writing to myself about the occurrences of one day let me read an excerpt from it.
Dear Diary,
Today was a busy day! I made 4 big mistakes during my shift and surprisingly did not get in trouble for it. A few of the guys at work even volunteered to take the blame for my mistakes...awww how sweet ^_^ But being the honorable person I am I went to my boss and explained the situation. With a smile he said "It's ok Jen humans make mistakes" with a pat on the back he sent me on my merry way. Sad thing is, I think he likes me, he's tried several times to ask me out but I've deviated from giving him an answer and somehow avoided such an opportunity for him to ask me directly. Another girl made a similar mistake to one of the four I made and the same supervisor affirmed his role and coached her. (coaching is very bad! it means they monitor your every move in order to track your mistakes) 3 coaching = fired! and it goes on your permanent record in the company. Suffice it to say all the girls hate me and all the guys are nice to me. I'm not a bitch to anyone either so I don't get why they hate me so much. I am SO nice to all of them but they have such Fein attitudes towards me that some of the guys were saying they talk behind my back. Ah well work drama with all that's going on I haven't had an internet craving in a while ^_^.
Step 5: Stick with the program.
And I've done so well thus far, although I'm on the internet now it's merely because I owe you guys an explanation for my sudden disappearance and it also helps that . It's ok though If I totally vanish from the internet I am still alive an well just not connected to the millions of others locked in the matrix of interconnectedness in this globalized world. If you feel bad I have no internet ha ha ha, it is you who I feel bad for ^_- .v. I am almost free from the dependency of staying connected.
But hey I might pop in from time to time who knows, it all depends when I have to let down a craving ^_-.v.
Sorry guys I've been too busy these couple of months and I have very limited time. I work 7 days a week and I am currently taking summer school to finish up my credits to graduate next spring. I also don't have internet access and thus no time to go online. My mother thought I was spending too much time on the internet and wasting valuable study time. I was very upset about this decision, what's the big deal anyway? I tried to convince her that the current generation needs to be wired into a system of elaborate systems in a life tapestry of interwoven lives through these inlets called computers. Suffice it to say she didn't buy it and BAM no more internet.
Now I feel like such an outcast on the playground which is life. I walk down the streets hearing them whispering and talking behind my back. "She doesn't have internet" "what kind of life is that?" What an outcast".
Naw just kidding no internet is fine there are millions of people that live their lives without internet and without the use of a computer. It's a step back from this North American life style I've grown accustomed to. I realized I had a problem...an Internet addiction if you will. It took a few steps in order to overcome this addiction and to live life simpler.
Step 1: Admit you have a problem:
I thought I didn't have a problem in fact I was so convinced I wasn't addicted to the computer and it's evilness that there was no problem as far as I was concerned. I realized the err of my ways and you know you have an internet addiction when:
I was looking for internet cafes to jive down to and surf.
I would call up my friends to go over their house and stay till 12am almost everyday to e-mail and play online games and surf.
Looking through Best Buy catalogues in search of a wireless internet connection via a laptop. That way I can hide it from my mom and I can leech internet signals off my next door neighbors.
That was the last straw I finally came to the realization that I had an internet addiction. So on October 7th 2003 I faced my inner demon looked at my reflection in the mirror and told the person I saw "Hi my name is Jenna and I have a problem...-_- I am addicted to the internet"
THERE I said it and that was the first step on my way to recovery.
Step 2: Cut off the cancer before it gets worse and set some goals, in other words quite cold turkey. No more internet cafes, no more sleeping over at friends houses to use the computer no more!
Step 3: Find something to keep myself busy while I try to get over the cravings and urges...
I answered this step by work, work, work oh and more work. I now work at a warehouse picking things for orders and what not, and I still work at Wal-mart on the weekends. Right after work I go to school where I am studying business law. Did you know that nine tenths of the law is based on ownership? I did not know that!! where else could you learn of such meticulous detail but from books, and from class....maybe interne.... >_< I mean books ^_^
Step 4: Log your progress with some sort of journal...(ONLINE JOURNAL?!?!) oh right paper and pen type journal... sigh! -_- so I've been writing to myself about the occurrences of one day let me read an excerpt from it.
Dear Diary,
Today was a busy day! I made 4 big mistakes during my shift and surprisingly did not get in trouble for it. A few of the guys at work even volunteered to take the blame for my mistakes...awww how sweet ^_^ But being the honorable person I am I went to my boss and explained the situation. With a smile he said "It's ok Jen humans make mistakes" with a pat on the back he sent me on my merry way. Sad thing is, I think he likes me, he's tried several times to ask me out but I've deviated from giving him an answer and somehow avoided such an opportunity for him to ask me directly. Another girl made a similar mistake to one of the four I made and the same supervisor affirmed his role and coached her. (coaching is very bad! it means they monitor your every move in order to track your mistakes) 3 coaching = fired! and it goes on your permanent record in the company. Suffice it to say all the girls hate me and all the guys are nice to me. I'm not a bitch to anyone either so I don't get why they hate me so much. I am SO nice to all of them but they have such Fein attitudes towards me that some of the guys were saying they talk behind my back. Ah well work drama with all that's going on I haven't had an internet craving in a while ^_^.
Step 5: Stick with the program.
And I've done so well thus far, although I'm on the internet now it's merely because I owe you guys an explanation for my sudden disappearance and it also helps that . It's ok though If I totally vanish from the internet I am still alive an well just not connected to the millions of others locked in the matrix of interconnectedness in this globalized world. If you feel bad I have no internet ha ha ha, it is you who I feel bad for ^_- .v. I am almost free from the dependency of staying connected.
But hey I might pop in from time to time who knows, it all depends when I have to let down a craving ^_-.v.
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